haiz..todae, once again, din do much thingy..juz do some maths qns in the morning..finallie i can write nw..but onli can hold the pen wif 3 fingers..n the last 2 pop out lyk tt..look weird lar..when i'm writing..mi finger is much much beta..but..still little swollen..n dun feel pain liao..unless touch the joints bend it 2 hard..it takes time lar..everythingy takes time (juz lyk wat i told mi fren), we muz b optimistic bout certain thingys..we juz can't keep living in the dark side of the world..we muz b strong 2 face the world n the future..ya..it's true..easier sae than done...i try 2 b happie the whole dae todae, but juz tt i dun hav the mood..dun hav the mood 2 do anythingy..dun hav the mood 2 luff..2 smile..even when i smile..it's a sad smile....i noe tt i'm vv emotional..but never noe it's 2 this extent..never..it's juz take time lar..i juz nid time n peace 2 recover fr all dese thingys..n get back 2 mi own self